The title touched me, that someone would consider themselves ugly. It saddens me how shallow people are and how cruel people can be.
Don't get me wrong I do enjoy perks from willing guys when I know I am looking my best. For example my hairdresser has given me free products, and once let me rack up a bill of a couple of hundred quid whilst I sorted out a new credit card. I've had various help with my car and the guys have said 'don't worry about it' when I've asked what I owe. Whilst I appreciate these little extras I am concious that if I didn't look good then I wouldn't get them.
I can honestly say I don't call people ugly. In my opinion only ugly people use the word ugly, and when I use the word in this text it's not in relation to how they physically look, but more the person they are.
It's a sensitive thing for me because of the years of bullying I had for how I looked. Something reminded me of those days the other day....
I was parked up in my car I'd just arrived at a friends. It was when it was mega hot and admittedly I didn't look my best. I was sweaty, wearing no make up and I no doubt was quite red. A couple of guys cycled past me seeing the blonde hair from behind, and as they passed the window they looked in saw my sweaty face and said 'urrgh oh no'! Clearly they were disappointed not to see a flawless, made up blonde vixen. It was a little bruise to the old ego! Lol :)