Monday, 6 July 2009

Ugly

I stumbled across http://betedejour.blogspot.com/2008/01/30-year-old-virgin.html . I have just ordered the book Bete De Jour, The Diary of an Ugly Man and I'm thoroughly looking forward to reading it.

The title touched me, that someone would consider themselves ugly. It saddens me how shallow people are and how cruel people can be.

Don't get me wrong I do enjoy perks from willing guys when I know I am looking my best. For example my hairdresser has given me free products, and once let me rack up a bill of a couple of hundred quid whilst I sorted out a new credit card. I've had various help with my car and the guys have said 'don't worry about it' when I've asked what I owe. Whilst I appreciate these little extras I am concious that if I didn't look good then I wouldn't get them.

I can honestly say I don't call people ugly. In my opinion only ugly people use the word ugly, and when I use the word in this text it's not in relation to how they physically look, but more the person they are.

It's a sensitive thing for me because of the years of bullying I had for how I looked. Something reminded me of those days the other day....

I was parked up in my car I'd just arrived at a friends. It was when it was mega hot and admittedly I didn't look my best. I was sweaty, wearing no make up and I no doubt was quite red. A couple of guys cycled past me seeing the blonde hair from behind, and as they passed the window they looked in saw my sweaty face and said 'urrgh oh no'! Clearly they were disappointed not to see a flawless, made up blonde vixen. It was a little bruise to the old ego! Lol :)

5 comments:

nigel said...

Bea, I was sorry to hear you have retired from escort. we were informed us this by amber. I have been a fan of yours since the channel 5 documentary, in which a camera crew followed you as you joined an agency, remember how you took abit of stick from your brother. Come out of retirement bea give me a chance to see you

nigel said...

Bea, I was sorry to hear you have retired from escorting. we were informed of this by amber. I have been a fan of yours since the channel 5 documentary, in which a camera crew followed you as you joined an agency, remember how you took abit of stick from your brother. Come out of retirement bea give me a chance to see you

nigel said...

Bea, i wouldnt care if you never wore makeup, or how sweaty you were, you are always delicious

SirNoldor said...

Real beauty comes from the heart. Throughout life, I've met physically attractive and unattractive people who exude inner beauty. Likewise, those who have a cruel cold heart will reveal themselves eventually.

Travel through Life with eyes open wide. Expect graciousness but plan also for rudeness. Your kindness and Light-Of-Heart usually will open doors regardless of your physical beauty.

Bea, how are your dreams these days? I thought about what you revealed. On reflection, it seemed that you were expecting a 'diamond-of-a-deal' but were afraid it may be downgraded to a lesser stone or not a gem at all. New projects and opportunities always carry a bit of insecurity in your choices. Be strong, do your homework, make decisive decisions, plan for the worse...and everything should work out fine (and exceed your expectations)! -)

Toodles,

Dolnor Numbwit
Eternal Newbie
Fountain of Wisdom....in his own mind.

Bea said...

Aw bless you thanks Nigel XXXX